Taking On A New Mindset

I recently did a vlog in which I spoke about the sudden moment of realisation that I had last week. 

That vlog is here: Ranting In A Field

But after blabbing on for five minutes I've decided to reinforce what I meant and try and make what I was saying a little more cohesive. 

This post isn't going to be about anxiety and Emetophobia but they are two key parts of my life that have been holding me back for many years. There are things I wouldn't do and places I wouldn't go because of these things. 

It is only recently that I have managed to take control and change myself for the better.

I spent last week at my school helping out some of the teachers with the activity they were running for lower school. 

This activity involved running around the school and using the clues that they found to come up with a creative explanation of which teachers were aliens and why. 

Now...considering what I've been doing for the last few years, exams and revision, having an activity like that presented to you would have been bliss, right? 

Over the course of the week I watched several teams of people pass through this activity. With mixed attitudes obviously. Some loved it and some treated it as though it was the biggest chore in the world. 

That was when I realised just how little lower school appreciate how easy their lives within school are. It was also when I realised just how little I appreciated how easy my life was when I was in lower school. 

I spent my Year 7, 8, 9 days worrying about friends and homework. Both of which felt like such a huge deal. To me it was the end of the world if I didn't pass my end of term Combined Science paper and get a Level 5a when my friends were getting 7c. (I don't even think those gradings are a thing anymore). 

Little did I know that from then on, it was going to get harder. A lot harder and probably never easier ever again. 

Now my life is consumed by exams, revision, applications, work experience, UCAS, universities, as well as trying to maintain a healthy lifestyle and a successful social life. 

Don't get me wrong, my life as I know it is by no means 'difficult'. But, what I'm saying, is that compared to what I'd been worrying about for the first three years of high school, I have far more justification for my stresses now. 

This led me on to thinking about how much I regret not making the most of every care free day. I wish I could go back to my 4 year old self and say, enjoy yourself, everyday. 

SO..

This is this new thing I'm trying. 

I've come to the conclusion that different stresses and responsibilities are going to appear over the next few years and I'll be wishing I could relive the care free 17 year old days. 

I don't want to think back on these next few years wishing I'd made the most of it.

I want to live everyday to the full. 

I want to do as much as I can, while I have the time and money to do so. 

I want to travel while I have no commitments.

I want to see friends while I have no restrictions. 

I want to make memories that I'll never forget and be glad that I've made the most of everyday. 

So yeah, this is what I've been thinking about over the last few days. 

I hope this has motivated you to take on the same mindset and make the most of everyday before it's too late! 

'til next time,

Hannah xo